Tuesday, January 26, 2016

Why I Love Star Wars So Much

"Why do you love Star Wars so much?"

I was asked this question recently and have been pondering whether my answer adequately spoke the to the depth of how much Star Wars truly does mean to me.  Many people would respond to this question in a generic, superficial, pop-culture sort of way.  Star Wars is popular now more than ever (if the Box Office records The Force Awakens broke are any indication).  It is definitely a fun and engaging galaxy to like and enjoy and to love, where the characters are rich and real, the story is deep and emotional, and the nature of human life and love it explores is just as good as many of the great sagas of our day (Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, and dare I say Star Trek ;), etc.)  Now I could also answer in that same sort of generic way, namely that Star Wars is a fun (lightsaber battles and The Force!), deep (Anakin's fall to the dark side and subsequent redemption by his son, Luke), and an emotional (Han and Leia's son Ben's fall to the dark side as Kylo Ren, who kills his dad) story that I find appealing, and indeed it is, but that is not why I love it so much.  Let me explain... and I know this may seem a bit strange, but bear with me.

Darth Vader and TK-421 made an appearance at Wal-Mart.
My first introduction to Star Wars was back when I was in junior high school.  Star Wars: Attack of the Clones had just hit theaters and I was enthralled.  I loved it, perhaps not because it was an exciting movie (which it was, and I still love that movie, especially Jango Fett), but because it opened to me the world beyond the movie.  It introduced me to characters that I cared about and wanted to "hang out" with and get to know.  I began to watch the other movies and began reading the Legends novels as quickly as I could, particularly focusing on the events post Return of the Jedi.  I loved it all so much and particularly I loved the characters.  I saw in them traits that I wished I had myself, courage, strength of character, moral uprightness, and friends.  I even viewed the novels as my friends and would take every opportunity I had to read a chapter or two.  Star Wars was a great gift to me at that time and I loved every minute of it.

I couldn't resist a photo opportunity with them.
At this point in my personal life, I was in junior high and high school with relatively few friends.  Not that I was unlikeable, but I was a good student (thank you Mom and Dad) and many of my classmates resented me for it and rather than be my friend, I was bullied quite a lot.  Not physically, but definitely verbally.  I was called the "goodie-two-shoes" and the "teacher's pet" among other less than desirable names.  They made fun of me for various things (I was consistently picked last for teams in P.E.) and my love of Star Wars was also attacked.  They even wrote a horribly offensive note attacking me and said explicitly, "I can't write wookie so i hope you can understand what im writing."  Everything about me was stomped on.  The few friends that I had were never quite supportive outright when I was verbally attacked (except on a rare occasion).  I was alone and miserable.  Needless to say my time in junior high and high school was a tough and bitter time for me.  I felt worthless.  I felt like I was somehow corrupt at my very core because obviously my classmates could see the corruption and I couldn't.  Consequently, my love for Star Wars was something to be ashamed of and hidden because it only caused ridicule and shame.  I turned to academics as a way of trying to prove my goodness to the world (and to myself).  I thrived on academics and ended up becoming the valedictorian of my high school class, in a sense trying to show to myself that they were wrong about me.  Even so I never felt like I had human dignity, I never felt worthy of love.  My academic "success" left me feeling happy, yet empty.  (I do need to point out that I have wonderful and loving parents and siblings who helped me through this part of my life.  I would not be the man I am today without them!).

I dressed up as a Sith Lord for Halloween my senior year in high school. 

The Star Wars books even made an appearance in my senior pictures.
I became a closet Star Wars fan, always afraid if people knew how much I did like it, they would despise me, ridicule me, and tell me how stupid I was, even though I knew that must not be right.  As I went off to college this was true.  I continued to read the Legends novels as they were published and loved them, but again I didn't share that love with anyone.  New friends that I gained were often surprised when they saw my Star Wars book collection if they came over to my house.  I kept it to myself primarily.

Then something happened in my life that has changed me forever.  I entered the seminary and began my studies to eventually be ordained a Catholic priest (coming soon in May of 2016!).  Seminary formation has been the biggest grace and challenge in my entire life.  It has helped form me into the man I am today by helping me to pray and move closer to God, but also to grow on a human level as a man.  I was carrying so much garbage with me into seminary (low self-esteem, self-hatred, timidity, shame, lies regarding my own worth and dignity as a human person).  Slowly, after years in seminary, I began to understand that I wasn't corrupt like I had believed for years (ever since my time in junior high and high school).  I began to understand that I was a Beloved Son of God the Father and that very fact made me incredible precious in His sight.  No matter how anybody treated me, ever, could change that.  God helped me to look back on my life and see that my classmates, in bullying me, were not speaking to the truth of who I was, but who they were.  And rather than telling me that I was a corrupt and horrible person, they were telling me that they, themselves, were broken and lacking in love.  But I, in my adolescence, did not understand this truth and took on all the shame that wasn't mine to gain.  I let go of my resentment towards them and began to live out of the truth that I am loved by God and that is all that matters.

So, "how does Star Wars fit into all of this?" you may ask.  As I have embraced my identity as a Beloved Son of God the Father, I have come to realize that everything about me is precious and good (as long as I'm not sinning), including Star Wars.  The past year or so I have become vocal in my fandom for Star Wars.  I have realized that liking Star Wars is not a shameful thing, but it is actually a part of what makes me, me!  It is a hobby that I have and I am no longer ashamed of it.  Embracing my love for Star Wars is, in a real sense, a reclamation of my childlike innocence that I lost in junior high and high school.  After being bullied, I pushed that childlike wonder and awe in the galactic story of Star Wars aside because I thought it somehow made me detestable, and have only, in recent years, re-embraced that childlike wonder and awe in my fandom of Star Wars because I understand the truth about who I am.  This is why I created this website and podcast with my friend, Sean Heller.  It allows me to have a lot of fun with that pure, childlike attitude in a story that connects people all across the world.




The above pictures were taken at the Colorado Symphony where they performed Star Wars music (May 2015).

At the opening night of Star Wars: The Force Awakens!

So why do I love Star Wars so much?  Because it is a reminder to me of the purity and goodness within me as a beloved child of God.  


Why do you love Star Wars?

May God bless you all!

Saturday, January 9, 2016

Episode 1 - The Podcast Awakens


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Show Notes for Episode 1:
  • Topic of this show, The Force Awakens.
  • Best Reveal?
    • Millennium Falcon? (“The garbage will do.”)
    • Han and Chewie boarding the Falcon?
    • Kylo as Han and Leia’s Son?
    • Kylo Ren’s face?
    • Ben Solo as birthname?
    • Luke Skywalker at the end?
  • Parallels/callbacks to A New Hope
    • Desert Planet
    • Droid on a mission
    • Planet/moon super weapon with a small but possible chance to be destroyed, which is exploited
    • Maz’s pirate base = Mos Eisely Cantina
    • Dejarik board
    • Lightsaber training ball
  • What made this movie work?
    • Practical Effects (BB-8, Aliens in costume/puppets)
    • Not giving us the whole story (lot’s of unexplained references like in A New Hope)
      • No substantial explanation to the rise of the First Order/Resistance and what happened
      • Gives viewers the impression that this story is only one part of an already established universe
  • Legendary (get it?) Inspirations
    • New Republic forces against the remnants of the Empire
    • Han and Leia’s Son turning dark (Legacy of the Force)
      • Jacen Solo > Darth Caedus sacrificing Mara Jade Skywalker to assume the mantle of Sith Lord
      • Ben Solo > Kylo Ren sacrificing Han Solo to complete his descent to the darkness.
    • Planet Weapon that destroys a Sun (Suncrusher - Jedi Academy Trilogy)
    • Luke’s first lightsaber found and passed on - to Mara Jade (http://starwars.wikia.com/wiki/Anakin_Skywalker%27s_second_lightsaber)
    • Han and Leia separate.
  • Rey
    • The Scavenger
  • Finn
    • Finn is naive in a funny and good way, not in an annoying way.
  • Poe Dameron
  • BB-8
  • Kylo Ren
  • Supreme Leader Snoke
    • Darth Plageus
    • Some crazy fan theory its Vader.
  • Hans Demise
    • Relationship with Leia
    • Married?  I hope so.
  • Planet as a Death Star?
  • Journey to find Luke
  • Who is Rey?
    • Luke’s daughter?
      • Lightsaber legacy (Anakin, Luke, Rey…)
      • Naturally strong in the Force
    • Han and Leia’s daughter?
      • Natural piloting ability of the Millennium Falcon
      • Han is a “fatherly figure” she never had
    • A third party?
    • Notice when Maz asks Han “Who’s the girl?” the scene cuts to Finn and we don’t hear his answer.  Perhaps he actually knows who she is and we don’t get to hear it.
    • Also notice Kylo Ren’s particular obsession with “the girl.’  Perhaps he knows who she truly is as well.
  • Final Thoughts
  • Wrap up
    • Next episode topic announced, Possibly talking about the Legends universe as a general idea, and disney making a canon.

Friday, January 8, 2016

There has been an awakening...

Sean and I have been busy working on starting up a Star Wars themed podcast (a dream hobby we've both had) and finally it has come to fruition!  At least initially.  We finally sat down last night after months of throwing the idea around and recorded Episode 1 of Club Bwua'Tu!  Our topic focused primarily on Star Wars: The Force Awakens as it was our first conversation with each other regarding the movie (intentionally) and we also discussed our first experience with the Star Wars universe in general.  Afterwards we realized that we never quite explained the premise of our podcast and didn't really explain who we are...so stay tuned for those in Episode 2!

Anyways, have a listen and bear with us as we figure out this whole podcasting world and remember that this podcast is first and foremost a way for Sean and I to keep in touch and talk Star Wars and is not meant to be more than that.  If you find you like listening to Sean and I talk Star Wars, then feel free to join us!

Twitter: @clubbwuatu
-Deacon Andrew Kinstetter @akinstetter
-Sean Heller @mistermavrick90

Monday, September 14, 2015

Smuggler's Run Review

Star Wars: Smuggler's Run is, by far, my favorite novel released during the Force Friday event on September 4, 2015.  As far as the Journey to Star Wars: The Force Awakens novels go, I have read Star Wars: Aftermath and Star Wars: Lost Stars with Star Wars: Weapon of a Jedi and Star Wars: Moving Target still sitting on my list of "to-read" novels.

Minor spoilers below, so read at your own risk.

Smuggler's Run was a fun, action packed adventure following Han Solo and Chewbacca on a mission for the Rebellion to the planet Cyrkon to rescue Ematt, a rebel who had information on where the rebels would and could relocate their base to and the contingency plans if they ran into trouble.  Basically a person, who, if captured by Commander Alecia Beck (the main villain) would spell disaster for the Rebellion.

First thing I loved about the book was the way that the prologue (and later I found the epilogue too) are set during the time period of Star Wars: The Force Awakens.  You meet Han Solo as an "old man" in the prologue and it's pretty obvious that this "old man" is none other than the one Han Solo, about to tell a story regarding the speed of the Millennium Falcon.  The prologue is enough to get anybody who is a fan of Han Solo and Chewbacca hooked into the story that follows.

Greg Rucka does an amazing job at capturing the dialogue with Han.  Every time Han spoke I could hear Harrison Ford's voice, especially between him and Chewie.  Also, when Han kept referring to Princess Leia by a variety of nicknames including "Your Shining Royalness" it sounded as if it had been taken out of deleted scenes from A New Hope.  Han knows how to get Princess Leia worked up and he does so wonderfully, which is totally in his character.  Two thumbs up for Rucka on this!

Han's character also goes through some character development, which is always a great thing to include in a novel. It adds depth to the story and makes the novel more than just a fun adventure; it reveals a deeper meaning to life.  A great novel will not only tell a fun story, but comment on and suggest to the reader a deeper meaning to life.  In this novel, trust is revealed as containing deeper meaning than Han originally understands.  Han learns a bit about how to trust, something he's never been good at.  At a certain point in the story, Han and Ematt are discussing how the bounty hunters found them and Ematt points out it might not only be by betrayal (even though unfortunately it was, sort of).  The following dialogue is my favorite out of the whole book:

"Betrayal isn't the only option."
"Yeah, well, it's the one I'm used to."
"I feel sorry for you, then.  Trust is as precious as it is rare, but you only get it by giving it."
Ematt was sounding an awful lot like the old man had.
"Trust isn't given, it's earned," Solo said.  "Like friendship."
"You must be very lonely," Ematt said.
Solo didn't respond.
(excerpt taken from page 119, emphasis added)

This is part of Han's growth as a character and we see this growth in The Empire Strikes Back when Han is way more trusting (in Luke and in Princess Leia) than he ever was in A New Hope.

Last thing I want to mention about this book is that my favorite character in the book is someone I was not expecting.  I, of course, love Han and Chewie, but they weren't my favorite characters in this book.  My favorite character was Torrent.  I loved meeting Torrent.  Torrent (or TX-828) was a stormtrooper in Commander Alecia Beck's company.  He was a clone, probably one of the very few who was based off of the original Kamino-produced template (Jango Fett).  I enjoyed the fact that we were introduced to his character and rather than just being a normal stormtrooper, we got to see him take off his helmet, reveal his nickname from his off-time in the barracks, and pretty much rock his job as a stormtrooper; he even was a good shot unlike most of the other stormtroopers.  Torrent brought humanity and personality into the stormtroopers and that was fun to read.

Star Wars: Smuggler's run is a must-read for anyone interested in the new novels as we Journey to Star Wars: The Force Awakens.  I give it my whole-hearted approval.

Friday, September 11, 2015

Lost Stars Review

My first few thoughts as I picked up Star Wars: Lost Stars by Claudia Gray:  A young-adult (YA) Star Wars Romeo and Juliet novel?  Am I too old for this?  Well, I read The Hunger Games and they are in the YA genre, didn't I?  Yes.  How is this different?  Hmm...well, this story is focused around a romance and I'm a guy.  Does that matter?  Only if the story isn't good, then it would definitely matter.  So...do I want to risk it?  YES, it's Star Wars!  And then I dove right in.

Note: Spoilers are discussed below so if you haven't read the book and don't want to read spoilers, don't read any further.  Finish the book and then come back to read my review.

Immediately I found I cared deeply for the characters, which is a high mark for the book already.  If an author can create believable characters that tug at my heart, then I'm sold.  From the first page, I felt like I could relate to Thane and smiled as the events of Thane meeting Ciena for the first time were portrayed.  It brought me back to my own time in Elementary School.  As I journeyed with Thane, I felt his pain as if I was a friend standing by that couldn't do anything as his father physically abused him and, conversely, cheered for him and Ciena as they grew to be good friends and awesome pilots.

I was pleased to see them head off to the Academy on Coruscant so we could get a glimpse of life on the famous planet.  I found myself relating their time in the academy to my own experience of high school (and I imagine to most peoples' experience in high school).  The academic competition, the awkwardness of hormones, the fragility of friendship that isn't rooted deeply, and the broken friendship which would take years to heal were all things that I had also, to some degree, experienced in my own life.  Because of this reality, I was hooked even more deeply into this story because I wanted to see how Thane and Ciena dealt with the brokenness of their pasts.  Thane had authority issues stemming from his broken relationship with his father.  A reality that many have in our world today!  To that extent Thane struggled to believe in the goodness of those in authority over him at the academy, almost pushing too hard and risked getting himself and Ciena dismissed from the Academy.  Ciena had a more wholesome family life growing up, rooted deeply in the honor of her culture.  Honor meant everything to her, which played a role in how she viewed and acted in the novel.  This honor prevented her from the seeing the corruption that was in front of her because she believed the Imperial authorities also had the same honor (which most didn't).  This honor ultimately led to her never-wavering decision to be an officer in the Empire, even after seeing its corruption.  Thane, on the other hand, couldn't bear the atrocities he witnessed and eventually joined the rebelling, putting him and Ciena on opposite sides of the war, unable to be together.

This was such a great setup to the Romeo and Juliet archetypal story that Claudia Gray was writing.  Rather than put them on opposite sides of the conflict to begin with (which happens in Romeo and Juliet), Gray had Thane and Ciena grow up together, become close friends, and then find themselves drawn to opposite ends of the war, while still trying to love each other.  Thane and Ciena were friends first and not only friends, but best friends.  This is the way a romance should be.  Romance should never be divorced from friendship (not that all friendships are romantic because most are not, but a relationship leading to marriage should always be grounded in a friendship).  I was very pleased to see this relationship start as best friends.  In writing a Romeo and Juliet type of story, it also meant that Gray had to reconcile (or try to reconcile) the fact that these two people love each other and the galactic conflict is keeping them apart.  In Romeo and Juliet there were only a few outcomes of their personal situation: running away (getting out of the system that is preventing the relationship), revolution (change the system that is preventing the relationship), or suicide (the removal of oneself entirely from the system).  Romeo and Juliet, of course, try to run away, but they both end up committing suicide (the Shakespearean tragedy).  For Thane and Ciena, running away isn't an option because Ciena lives a life of honor and running away would be dishonorable.  Suicide seems to be an option (Ciena accepts this as her way out near the end of the novel, but Thane prevents her in the nick of time).  So, ultimately, suicide is not an option.  Revolution, lastly, seems to be the answer for Thane and Ciena.  They must change the system, overthrow the Empire (at least Thane believe so).  The end of the novel leaves this last piece of the story in limbo and we don't find out what eventually will happen to Thane and Ciena (not yet anyways).  Although Ciena is away from the Empire, she is a captive held by the New Republic when the story ends still leaving these two star-crossed lovers on opposing sides of the continuing war.

I really enjoyed this novel, it was written at a quick pace that kept my attention and the characters were believable.  I loved the many cameos and insights into the events in the Original Trilogy!  I kept grinning every time one came up (opening scene aboard the Devastator, the imperials sent to Dantooine, Hoth, Wedge Antilles, Dak Ralter, Mon Mothma and Admiral Ackbar to name a few).  I also really appreciated the fact that this novel brought humanity to the Imperials.  The Imperial officers and pilots had names, backgrounds and their own stories, which made me much more empathetic to the Empire as a whole and recognize there were good people in the Empire.  It made the conflict between the Empire and Rebellion not as black and white as I used to view it.

Another aspect of the novel that was great was the implicit reference to God.  Ciena points out one of the ways in which we know that God exists, through the natural world (she is, of course, referring to the existence of the Force, not God, but the same principle is applied to God).  Ciena says, "Believing in something greater than ourselves isn't crazy.  It's proof we're sane.  Look how vast the galaxy is.  Don't you have to admit we can't be the greatest power within it?"  (pg. 292).

Lastly I want to briefly address some of the issues I had with this novel because there were some.  I did not like the passing reference to Thane perhaps being gay (even though it was in the context of a joke), the passing reference to gender change and the explicit references (not obscene) to the sexual act.  These things in the novel added nothing to the story and are not needed whatsoever to tell a compelling story about the relationship between Thane and Ciena; sex is not needed to tell the story.  Additionally, it spoiled the characters' purity before marriage, which our culture doesn't care about anymore.  The sexual act itself is not something that (to my knowledge) has never been directly referenced in Star Wars novels (it's of course implied, but never directly like it was in this novel).  The direct reference to the sexual act is unfortunate, in my opinion, because Star Wars is supposed to be this fun, innocent and magical galaxy, telling the story of good versus evil that is appropriate for all ages.  With the sexual act being casually thrown out there as if it were ordinary, it damages the sacredness of the marital act within marriage where it is supposed to be (Thane and Ciena were not married).  None of these topics should be referenced this casually in this galaxy far far away (I took similar issue with Chuck Wendig's Star Wars: Aftermath novel).  Because of this, I am worried about the direction of the new Star Wars novels.  If sex and sexuality are going to be a continuing theme (even if it's only in passing) in the novels, I will have to start to think twice about reading them.  Star Wars is not the place for this and I am disappointed with the seeming agenda in these new Star Wars novels to promote sex outside of marriage and the LGBT identity as commonplace and normal.

Overall, though, I really enjoyed this book.  If I could cut out the 5-6 sentences that referenced sexuality, it would be a fantastic, wholesome, novel.  The characters were great, I related deeply to them and rooted for them.  I also loved the revelation we got at the end as to how the Star Destroyer ended up crashed on Jakku.  It adds a whole new light to the teaser trailer for Star Wars: The Force Awakens.  Well done!

Sunday, September 6, 2015

Aftermath Thoughts

Star Wars: Aftermath, with such incredible hype and expectation among Star Wars fans everywhere, I need not even say I was excited for this book, but I was excited for this book.  Excited enough that I pre-ordered it on Amazon and on #ForceFriday I couldn't wait for it to be delivered so I ended up going to Barnes & Noble to buy it before the box was delivered.  My intention is to give the Amazon ordered book to my friend and fellow Star Wars blogger of this blog, Sean Heller (ironically the Amazon shipment experienced a transit delay by 1-2 days so it worked out that I went ahead and bought a copy).  I finished reading Star Wars: Aftermath last night.

This post is a review of the Star Wars: Aftermath with mainly just my stream of consciousness regarding the novel.  I did not read any reviews before reading Aftermath, the only hint I had in what was to come was the sanctioned preview that StarWars.com gave us in July.  This post may contain minor spoilers, so read at your own risk.  In this post I do not wish to be harsh and negative but I plan to speak my mind. All opinions are my own and the truth is the truth. 

First thing I noticed about Aftermath is Chuck Wendig's writing style.  He writes Star Wars: Aftermath in the third person present tense and uses short pointed sentences with many colons, parenthetical notes, and similes.  From what I've gathered from other reviewers, this seems common to Wendig's writing style in general.  I have to admit that I found it jarring and didn't appreciate it.  I have never seen the present tense used in Star Wars literature before and rather than settling into the tense and feeling the urgency it created (which for many readers it accomplished just that and was successful), I kept stumbling over the tense and did not like it.  I also am used to a longer, more fluid and descriptive writing style, so Wendig's short blocky structure also threw me off.  I felt like I was reading stage directions and had to reorient myself each chapter (which was very often).  That being said, I don't wish to be harsh, I'm sure Wendig's style works amazingly well in his other novels (I have not read them) and it did add a sense of urgency, which I did pick up on as well.  I just didn't feel it worked well for this book.

I was hoping to see more of Luke, Han, and Leia.  Han and Chewie show up very briefly and I wanted to follow them, but couldn't.  Wendig introduced us to so many new characters that I had trouble keeping up and there was typically only small references to Luke, Han, and Leia.  I wanted to follow their stories post-Return of the Jedi, like the Legends novels did.  In the end this novel was great in that we got introduced to a variety of new characters and I got to try to guess which characters would play into the stories of the others and was pleased to see them all connect to the greater plot in the novel.  I would have liked to have gotten more character development, however, because I still don't feel like I know the main characters very well and I lack an emotional connection to them.  In other words, I didn't care about them.

Now for my biggest issue with Aftermath.  I did not appreciate the introduction of the LGBT characters whatsoever.  Being a Catholic Deacon heading into priestly ordination in the Catholic Church I have spent many years studying Theology, studying sexuality as seen in God's plan (which is reflected in the natural order of the world; in nature) and interacting with and being really good friends with those who struggle with same sex attraction who are trying to live lives of chastity and in accord with God's plan (celibacy).  That being said I understand well the reality of same sex attraction in many in our world today.  It is very real thing and must be understood properly in order to bring those persons true joy and happiness.  True joy and happiness is found in authentic love, which can never ever be equated to a sexual relationship, which our culture tends to suggest.  Authentic love as revealed by Jesus Christ is this: "Greater love has no man this, that a man lays down his life for his friends." (John 15:13, RSV).  Those who have same sex attraction are called, just like everyone in this world, to love authentically (which may or may not include a hetero-sexual physical relationship).  Authentic love does not mean sex.  Marriage as God intended it to be is between one man and one woman and it has, by its very nature, a unitive and a procreative aspect.  Marriage unites a couple and produces children.  Neither can be separated or else marriage becomes selfish.  Gay marriage breaks the essence of marriage; gay marriage is not, and can never be, life-giving (it ceases to produce children).  I preached a homily about this reality of marriage, and you can read it here to understand more.

Now I am not suggesting that those who have same sex attraction should never be included in novels, because I'm not.  That is a reality in our world that can be real in novels too.  I am saying that those who have same sex attraction in novels should not be used in a way that promotes an agenda, I do not know Wendig's reason for including them so I am not implying Wendig has an agenda here.  But what I do see is that Wendig portrays a gay marriage (two women) as completely normal and natural.  He also reveals that one of the major male heroes of the novel is not attracted to women.  Both of these aspects of Aftermath seemed to be awkward and not at all necessary to the story.  They seemed to be added only as a way of revealing that gay marriage and a gay hero exist in Star Wars.  It seems to be a way of "normalizing" gay marriage and the gay identity as something normal, even admirable.  I mean, it's in Star Wars and isn't portrayed as wrong or out of the ordinary, so it must be good, right?  No.  This is not healthy.  Same sex attraction is a very real thing, but it is not natural and shouldn't be admired, nor promoted as something healthy and normal (again with the proper understanding that in itself the same-sex inclination is not sinful, but acting out on the inclination is; also recognizing that same-sex attraction is a disordered desire, just as a lustful inclination in any sense, heterosexual or homosexual, is a disordered desire).  I was disappointed to see that in a Star Wars novel.  Star Wars should be a magical place in a galaxy "far far away" and this just brings it closer to earth and less magical.  Even the seemingly obvious reference to a Star Wars Settler's of Catan board game in the novel seemed too close to home.  I want to go to a galaxy far far away, not stay here on Earth.  

Anyways, long story short, I didn't hate the book, in fact, I liked many parts of Star Wars: Aftermath by Chuck Wendig.  I loved seeing the galaxy after Return of the Jedi, in little bits and pieces from many different stories.  I am excited we are moving toward Star Wars: The Force Awakens and I'm hoping I caught some of the hints that point to the movie (I may or may not have).

This blog post is not meant to attack Chuck Wendig or hurt his reputation. I think he is a good author and I just had thoughts on his novel, Star Wars: Aftermath, that I wanted to share. In no way do I condone or encourage attacks on Chuck Wendig as an author because Aftermath is not the Star Wars EU or for any other reason. That is malicious and unwarranted and I want everyone treated with the dignity and respect they deserve as human persons who are uniquely creative as authors too. 

Sunday, August 23, 2015

Vergere's Words of Wisdom: Human Emotion

Vergere is one of the most intriguing characters in the Star Wars Legends: The New Jedi Order book series.  She is Jedi.  She is Sith.  She is both.  Or, perhaps, she is neither.  She was a Jedi during the Old Republic during which time she was also a rogue student of the Force, apparently studying Count Dooku and encountering Darth Sidious, eventually becoming a student of his and a candidate to become a Sith under him.  After noticing Darth Sidious' greed and utter compulsion to rule, Vergere realized Sidious' plan would devastatingly destroy the galaxy and attempted to stop him by killing him, but failed.  Vergere escaped Sidious' retaliation by accepting a Jedi mission to visit the plant Zonama Sekot, where she met the Yuuzhan Vong and left the galaxy to live with them for fifty years (according to Lumiya's account of Vergere in Star Wars Legends: Legacy of the Force: Betrayal).  She returned with the Yuuzhan Vong in their invasion of the galaxy and played both sides of the war, betraying both the Yuuzhan Vong and the New Republic, seemingly on her own whims.  Eventually she participated in the capture of Jacen Solo by the Yuuzhan Vong and helped torture him in order to teach him the truth about the Force and to help him embrace his destiny.  Vergere, with Jacen, escaped the Yuuzhan Vong to return to the fledgeling government of the New Republic where she encountered Luke Skywalker in Star Wars Legends: The New Jedi Order: Destiny's Way.  She sacrificed her life for Jacen so that he wouldn't be killed by the Yuuzhan Vong and would be able to follow his destiny (which eventually led to his decent to the dark side as Darth Caedus in the Star Wars Legends: Legacy of the Force book series).

Regardless of what she truly is and where her true loyalties lie, Vergere is one of the most philosophical characters that appears (just read Star Wars Legends: The New Jedi Order: Traitor by Matthew Stover).  She even offers pointed advice to Luke Skywalker, which challenges him to step out of his pre-conceived notions and look at his beliefs about the Force from a different perspective.  In particular she makes some incredibly insightful comments on human emotion that are worth looking at.  First however, to gain a bit of context before looking at human emotion, the Jedi and Sith Codes, respectively, must be analyzed.


The Jedi and Sith Codes are embodiments of ideals on two opposite ends of a spectrum of thought regarding the Force.  Both are extreme in their positions.  While the Jedi Code advocates for no emotion to attain peace, the Sith Code pushes the opposite: peace is a lie so there is only passion (emotion).  Both of these statements are the starting points for both codes and the following statements are built upon these two principles.  The Jedi Code promotes peace, knowledge, serenity, harmony and life in the Force, all seemingly good things, at least on the surface.  The Sith Code promotes passion, strength, power, victory and freedom in the Force, also seemingly good things on the surface.  Both codes spell out a way to live life, but both codes are opposite each other in the extreme, hence why one is the Jedi Code and the other the Sith Code.

Neither Code is truly healthy.  

Living life in any extreme is dangerous.  Balance is needed in order to have a good and healthy life.  One way to look at these two Codes in light of trying to life a balanced life would be to see these as embodiments of two other extremes in our world today: rationalism and sentimentalism.  Rationalism is a belief that emotions can be understood completely rationally, which usually leads to a lack of emotional affectivity (being moved by one's emotions) because emotions are something one can understand intellectually, put in a nice clean box, and stored away.  This is what the first two statements of the Jedi Code seem to be getting at.  "There is no emotion, there is peace.  There is no ignorance, there is knowledge."  Knowledge is more important than emotions.  Or rather, knowledge of emotions is necessary so that one can attain this supposed lack of emotion to achieve peace.  When emotion is gone, it seems to claim, so is passion and chaos.  This is a faulty understanding of human emotion and affectivity!  Human emotion is not nearly as simple as that nor can it ever be truly contained and understood through knowledge.  Many people try to do this and end up suppressing their emotions, which leads to consequences later in life, where that suppressed emotion resurfaces since it was never healthily dealt with, only suppressed.  

Sentimentalism, on the other extreme, is an attitude of relishing one's own feelings to excess, which echoes the Sith Code fairly well.  One could think that since emotions are not as simple as the Jedi Code asserts, it would be good to engage in them fully.  The Sith Code doesn't try to ignore emotions, but it relishes them.  Since the peace that the Jedi Code asserts is a lie, unchecked passion leads to strength, power and victory according to the Sith Code.  This is also problematic with the true nature of humanity because unchecked passion actually leaves a person a slave to them.  A person's emotions and desires, their passions, when unchecked, lead one's mind to submit to whatever the emotions are inclined toward.  Emotions do not affect the will of a person directly, but indirectly (since experience shows us that emotions influence our thoughts, but don't ultimately make decisions for us).  But since "the judgement of the reason often follows the passion of the sensitive appetite, and consequently the will's movement follows it also" (St. Thomas Aquinas I-II q. 77, a. 1), an unchecked passion can lead to a defect in the will of a person, a person who is inclined to follow the whims of his or her passions, making him or her a slave to them.

So what actually is human emotion and what are we to do with it?  

"The term 'passions' belongs to the Christian patrimony.  Feelings or passions are emotions or movements of the sensitive appetite that incline us to act or not to act in regard to something felt or imagined to be good or evil."  (Catechism of the Catholic Church no. 1763)  Passions or emotions, then, are movements within a person that prompt one to act for a perceived good or avoid a perceived evil.  In themselves they are neither good nor evil, but are part of the natural human psyche.  They are part of what makes us human.  They are not meant to be suppressed nor engaged without restraint.

Emotions, then, incline one to a perceived good and to avoid a perceived evil within the day to day events of human life.  How that is to be done is what the Jedi and Sith Codes are formulated to answer.  But, the answer to this question is found not in either code, but in the middle of the two extremes, the mean, or average, between them.  The philosopher, Aristotle himself, is helpful here.  He discussed human disposition in chapter 8 of Nicomachean Ethics and says, "There are three kinds of disposition, then, two of them vices, involving excess and deficiency respectively, and one a virtue, viz. the mean, and all are in a sense opposed to all; for the extreme states are contrary both to the intermediate state and to each other, and the intermediate to the extremes; as the equal is greater relatively to the less, less relatively to the greater, so the middle states are excessive relatively to the deficiencies, deficient relatively to the excesses, both in passions and in actions."  Aristotle goes on to clarify by using the virtue of courage to illustrate his point.  Courage is the mean between the two extremes of rashness and cowardice.  A man who is a coward has an excess of fear in him, preventing him from acting all together.  A rash man has a deficiency of fear, encouraging him to act recklessly and dangerously, putting his own life in jeopardy.  It is the courageous man who has the balance within himself to act appropriately in regards to the fear within himself.

So human emotion is not something that should be suppressed (an attempt to understand rationally and locked away) or given into completely making one a slave, but is something that must be acknowledged, felt completely, understood fully, and acted on appropriately with human reason.  This is the mean between the extremes found between the Jedi and Sith Codes.  Luke Skywalker encounters this truth when he encounters Vergere in the novel Star Wars Legends: The New Jedi Order: Destiny's Way.

Luke Skywalker, still learning and still growing, lacked mentors in this area of human growth and had to learn mostly on his own (Obi-Wan Kenobi and Yoda both being gone early in Luke's formation).  So in his desire to rebuild the Jedi Order, Luke did his best to embody the ideals of the Jedi Code, which he had known through his study of the Jedi of the Old Republic, thus advocating that emotion is bad and should be lacking in a true Jedi.  Vergere attacks this belief, and rightly so, pointing Luke towards a truer understanding of human nature.  She immediately asks him, "Do you believe that nature would have given us traits such as anger and aggression if they were not useful?" (p. 182).  Vergere rightly points out that Luke's belief that all emotion is bad is incorrect.  She also points out the fault in both the Jedi and Sith Code as well, "An unchecked passion produces actions that are hasty, ill considered, and often destructive.  Serenity, on the other hand, may well result in no action at all - and when it does, serenity produces actions that proceed from knowledge and liberation, if not from wisdom," (p. 182).  Unchecked passion, then, is just as bad as complete serenity (or a complete lack of passion, in this sense).  Vergere goes on to explain that anger (a dangerous emotion from Luke's perspective) is actually natural and part of human nature, "Young Master, it is my contention that the anger you experienced was natural and useful.  I caused deliberate harm - pain and anguish and suffering, over a period of weeks - to a young man for whom you had accepted responsibility and for whom you felt a measure of love.  Naturally you felt anger.  Naturally you wanted to break my thin little neck.  It is absolutely natural, when you discover that a person has inflicted deliberate pain on a helpless victim, to feel angry with that person.  It is equally an emotion as to feel compassion for the victim," (p. 183).  Luke had berated himself for feeling angry, but Vergere points out how natural it truly is and not evil in and of itself.  She goes on to point out that the emotion that Luke felt was neither good nor evil in itself but what he did with it could have been either, "You are correct when you said that if you had entered my cell and struck out at me with the Force, that such an action would have been dark.  But you didn't.  Instead your anger prompted you to speak to me and find out the reasons for my actions.  To that extent, your anger was not only natural but useful.  It led to understanding on both our parts," (p. 183).  Vergere points out the immense responsibility to understand our emotions as a way to live a balanced life in the good and shows Luke exactly how he did just that.  She asks him, "My rhetorical questions is this: why wasn't your anger dark?  And my answer is: because you understood it.  You understood the cause of the emotion, and therefore it did not seize power over you" (p. 184).  Vergere is showing Luke that he didn't let his emotion make him a slave, nor did he rationalize it away in suppression, which he had been tempted to do.  She profoundly tells him,  "Unreasoning passion is the province of darkness," (p. 184).  And she continues to explain, "But an understood emotion is not unreasoning.  That is why the route to mastery is through self-knowledge."  She is saying that knowledge is good, but not knowledge that pushes emotions aside, knowledge that aids the interpretation and healthy response to emotions.  "It is not possible to suppress all emotion, nor is it desirable.  An emotionless person is no more than a machine.  But to understand the origin and nature of one's feelings, that is possible," (p. 184).  Vergere recognizes how easy it is to become a slave to emotion and warns Luke, "When you are in the grip of an irresistible compulsion, it is then that you feel most like yourself.  But in reality it was you who were passive then.  You let the feeling control you," (p. 184).  

Luke walked away from that encounter with Vergere lightyears wiser than he was before, and this marked a turning point, not only in the war against the Yuuzhan Vong, but in Luke's own growth as a character.  He comes to realize how natural human emotion is and how dangerous it is to suppress it or give it unbridled reign.  The wisdom gained here is the reason Luke goes on to become the Grand Master of the Jedi in the later book series.  As Luke learns and grows in wisdom, so are we able to if we are willing to let the little Fosh Jedi/Sith Vergere teach us about our own human nature through the words of Walter Jon Williams who wrote Star Wars Legends: The New Jedi Order: Destiny's Way.  

The character growth of Luke is a reason why he is such a great character even now and why these book series are still just as relevant, even if they are not officially part of the "canon" of Star Wars.  The Legends books are still being published so if you're tempted to ignore them, I urge you not to.  They have some great stories to tell in them, just as we have some great stories coming up with the new movie, Star Wars: The Force Awakens this December, and the other movies and upcoming novels (Journey to Star Wars: The Force Awakens hits bookstores on September 4!).  I am so excited to see and read what stories the Disney Story Group and Del Rey have in store for us in the Star Wars universe.  Get ready, because here they come!